glory

OK i named it glory b/c i thought i would just say somethings about me. ok here i go ... my ex girlfriend and i have been talkin alittle more and its great .. i dont know if she wants to get togather again or not ... but i have been talkin alot. this is how i feel about her... i care alot about her and would spend the rest of my life with her. She is the kind of person tha brings out everything good in me. She makes me feel happy and do better in everything i do. There is somethings that bother her but i would be willing to change ... one big thing is video games. For this girl i would do this. the thing is i dont think she wants to be with me b/cshe is afried of me going right back into plaing games for 12hr a day ... i wouldnt do that anymore ... U can say I love Her. What i think love means is a person u can spend the rest of your life with. A person that u can work through fights and that brings the best out in u. Some one told me that the Words :" I Love you" means respect .. but a person like me doesnt believe that. I have went on other dates with many girls ... but i just didnt feel like i did with her ... The thing is i really cant but it in words how i feel and how much i think we are great togather...well on her side she has also went on many dates and hasnt feklt the same about them. She still cares for me and i think she wants to be with me .. i just think she is afriad that she will be unhappy again andthats not what i want for her. I know this is the longest thread i have posted and some might not like it ... i am a little drunk .. but i just need to get it out there ... i care so much for her and i think she cares just as much ... she is thinking about going to the same college as me ... and is going to visit the college to see .. alot of other stuff came up in talks and i just like to know what u guys think ... should i try and be with the girl that makes me the most happy and who cares most about me ... and i care most about her .. or should i just stay friends and take all the talking and stuff as nothing? .. I hope u guys and girls can help ... and i am sry if it sounds shitty to u ....i just need to get this out ... like i said i Love this Girl.... And when i am with her i am the most happy... I would do anything for her and i think that we ae great together. i wont give up on the clan or anything . i want to keep this clan and friendships going till i die .. its just that i need to get her back .. she is the love of my life ... and i did talk to her about marriage at one point and time .. when we was togather .... its just the night i was going to ask her to marry me .. we got in a fight over my friends ... i have put my friends first everytime in my life .. but this shouldnt have been the time. i am going to stop rambling.