Wow buddy. Thats real deep. The only question i have to ask is that is she your first gf/love??? Because the first one always hurts and no offense to women here, but if they see a chance to change a man to something they want, they will say things to make that man want to change. If she cant love you for who you are, then its not worth being in a relationship with them. Trust me, i went through something like this too, and ended up drinking myself into the hospital for it. If you ever need somebody to talk to, i am always here for you buddy.