bleh

things have really started to go downhill. Like, everything. I don't want to say completely here but, I'm really scared and I'm just always upset. If someone doesn't mind talking, it would be really apreciated.

Does this involve your boyfriend?

nope.

Why are you scared..?

If it doesn't concern a partner, it must be a father/family issue.

Life began turning really shitty for you early on, or what? I know you said everything is going wrong, but is it a multiple number of big things making it shitty or just a bunch of little stuff? Both are equally annoying.
No one should have to live in fear and be upset all the time; you must be miserable.

its some big shit and alot of little shit. its like the only time i feel somewhat better is if i just get away from everything and wander the streets for a while, which probably isn't good.

its some big shit

IT'S A BIIIIIIIIIIG SHIT!

that picture is going to haunt my dreams for a while now. thank you.

He's partly crouched behind the leaf, as if waiting to strike.

That sucks. Usually when shit isn't going right for me I just hike out in the woods, and most of the time take a friend along and we just smoke a bunch. Either way, the hike is a good release from pressures in life, you just get to relax and take everything in. Thinking it over there is a lot easier too. Just a thought, though your street walking may not be too good.