Weed free for 6 months

After transforming into a complete, useless, worthless stoner I finally had enough. I've been 100% sober for the past 6 months.

It got so bad you had to quit? Wow. Mind giving me a list of everything you did? Just wondering if you remember it all. I mean, if you remember enough, write a book. Seriously, you can get rich off of making a book from anything, lately.

Anyway, congrats, I guess. Notice that you have alot more money?

The lack of motivation to do anything is the main reason for quitting, aside from other weird mental issues that arose.

Actually I do remember quite a bit of it, but in bits and pieces. The problem was, I spent a lot of time thinking about irrelevant things, more-so than legitimate life issues. I got to a point where I would manifest my thoughts on something so completely stupid that I felt I might be retarded, or maybe autistic or something. But no, I don't plan on writing a book, not atleast until i'm an old man with something worth reading.

I got to a point where I would manifest my thoughts on something so completely stupid that I felt I might be retarded, or maybe autistic or something.

Well shit, I do that, and I've never even tried drugs before.
Did you ever try scenarios? Like, you make us a situation, put people in it, and then (basically) put your brain in auto-pilot and see how it came out? I do it all the time, and it's usually surprisingly right.

yeah, absolutely. I've always done it even as a kid, but I think ganja makes it worse. I'm not sure who else out there may think in this way, but I know I certainly have.

Does weird shit you know would never happen ever happen? Like, another dude kissing you? Just asking.

No, I don't fantasize or imagine anything homosexual, not that I can remember. It's usually visualizing situations that I think I will encounter later on in the day, beforehand. Contemplation with visualization.

Yeah, I know. But, I mean, does it ever happen by accident? It happened to me, once, and I like forced my mind to stop thinking after that.
It wasn't anything completely homo, it was just a kiss, and he was the one doing it, not me, so...

Subconcious desire?

I doubt it. In the thought I freaked out and punched him, and my other friend just looked at us funny. I assure you, I'm not a fan of the male body, and would never homo at all.

Pretty funny, I think we quit at exactly the same time!

really? How long did you smoke for?

I don't plan to quit. It helps me with my stomach pains too much to want to quit. I just don't smoke that often to begin with. Then again, I've always known how to control myself.

Stomach pains? Couldn't you just take a tylenol, or something? Or is it that bad? I wonder what causes it...

Imagine a pain that's probably much akin to having your stomach ripped to shreds with dull scalpels.

Have you gotten that checked by a doctor? It's possible you have some kind of parasite.

It's been like this ever since my appendix had ruptured and went septic on me nearly a decade ago.

Ewww... you got it removed, right? If not, then you could probably try that... Last I heard, the appendix can be removed, so...

I had it removed. I would have only lived another 3 months if I hadn't then.

Oh. Well... congradulations of living. Sorry to hear about your pain (without love, can't get enough). The closest thing I've had to that is breaking my arm and both my legs. Not all at the same time, of course.