I think it's time to give up, now.

I suppose I'll commit suicide. Are there any slow, not-so-painful was to do it? I want to go unnoticed, until the last minute, and maybe have the chance to change my mind, so I don't want anything instant, like weapons or drinking a thing of bleach. Starving would be noticed, as well, as I simply like to eat, and everyone I know likes to cook. I'm considering continuous food poisoning. I'm not able to be talked out of this, so if you attempt that, I'll simply ask /b/ or some fuckers on Gaia.

You're an idiot.

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Having had my severe highs and lows with manic depression, the thought of suicide does bounce around in my brain. It's like an unwanted house guest; it should leave and never come back. The single most selfish act that one could do. All you are doing is looking for attention. Find something with a relatively high LD50 and ingest half of that amount over a period of time. I guarantee it will be a slow and painful death. Moron.

I haven't considered suicide as a fix for depression in a long time. These days when I contemplate suicide, it has nothing to do with being unhappy with my situation and everything to do with having no hope in our species and not wanting to see what we do during my lifetime. Things seem to be getting worse on a daily basis. Sometimes I think the quick release in death would make it all easier than watching everything go to shit and feeling like I can't do anything about it. Our species, or more specifically the people in it, are getting more and more stupid as time passes. Friends that I used to consider intelligent and rational thinkers are among them, and that scares me more than anything. I think some part of me is scared that if I hang around, the same thing is going to happen to me.

But K_A... it already has.

To some degree it has, yeah, but I like to think it's the pot and not society influencing me.

You're one of the most bitter and cynical people I know. And I know the internet.

It's rather fascinating, isn't it?

You're one of the most bitter and cynical people I know. And I know the internet.

Nobody cares what you think Mr. Messiah Complex. Why don't you go fix some more broken girls with the awesomeness that is you?

Nobody cares what you think Mr. Messiah Complex. Why don't you go fix some more broken girls with the awesomeness that is you?

Even if this was my M.O., it's still better than simply hating everyone and everything. Hiding behind the shield of nihilism is not a replacement for goals or personal responsibility.