That's what I hear most days from people at school. "Lenny, you're not in love, you're just obsessed!".
Bring in the cliches: I can't move on. It's not possible to stop loving someone in a moment. And there is no other one. Sure, there are some cute girls in the school, but no-one who comes close to Jenny. Maybe I am obsessed, having loved her for near enough two years. But I'm not moving on. If I have spooked her a lot, then I'll just let it lie for a few months then start talking to her again. If she asks if I still like her, I'll just keep it to myself.
I first started talking to her just after Xmas 2004, and you know how that first conversation ended? "So Lenny...who do you fancy?". She found out eventually, by way of my best friend, but it didn't stop her talking to me. In fact, we spoke most nights for the next few months.
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You say you haven't gotten notice that she recieved your declaration of love? Do you have classes with her? Do you even see her a good amount? Any mutual friends between the two of you? Social gatherings?
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Yeah, she did receive it - we talked the day after about it.
Yes, Sciences, Maths and PSHE.
At least one lesson every day.
Quite a few.
And only the odd party now and then...which I rarely go to unless it's someone I'm good friends with.
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Maybe I was a bit hasty with "I love you"...but she knows I like her. Everyone seems to make it their duty to let it drop into conversation. What else is there to say?
"I like you" - which is what she already knnows.
"I like you a bit more than what people are saying" - no biggy. Just a bit more.
"I really like you" - awwww, how sweet.
"I really like you...a lot" - slow down mate.
Tell her every single conversation but build it up in degress until a month later I tell her straight off?
What's done is done...and I could've done it a lot worse. I can build on a simple "I Love You" until...well until I've laid myself bare before her, told her absolutely every emotion I feel when I see her, what runs through my head when I think of her...everything. Now
that would have been the stupid thing.
I've said she's still talking to me, she still smiles and says "Good morning" in the morning, makes eye contact and nods in greeting if we pass in the corridor. It seems we're both carrying on as if nothing has happened - maybe "acting normally" a bit too much.
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So, flirt, hang out, make her laugh. I can make her laugh. That's the easy bit. Flirting will be slightly harder, but I believe I can pull it off - for one thing, we're talking a lot more that we did. She's actually starting conversations now.
Hanging out will be the hard one. It's not as if we live that close...and me? A social life? I prefer sitting inside flinging messages across the world on here or reading a good book to going out, though things are changing ever so slightly. I've even decided to invest in a pair of jeans.
Hopefully I can pull this off. If not, it'll be a great learning experience.
And I'm awful with riding a bike. I always get caught up in the chain or meander into a wall.
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