Fuck art

I haven't painted anything for almost six months. I doodle on occasion, but nothing "interesting" has ensued.

Furthermore, I dropped out of the Umeå Institute of Design (without telling anyone beforehand) for a large array of reasons; loss of motivation and depression being two of them. Subsequently, I submitted a last-day application to a fine arts school (similar to a pre-Umeå one I attended), and figured I would get rejuvenated in the freedom of summer and enjoy studying fine arts once again. That didn't happen.

I abhor my new art school (despite the fact that I'm "learning new things") and find the prospect of making a living as a fine artist, illustrator or designer of any kind to be harrowing. That being said, I do enjoy to draw, but I have realized that I have no desire to do it for anyone but myself. Quite the turn of events, one might think.

Anyway, during summer, I regained my pre-art interests in physics and computer science (largely due to having read Kurzweil's "The Singularity is Near" and Kaczynski's "Industrial Society and Its Future"), so perhaps I'll study Engineering Physics, Autonomous Systems or Computational Neuroscience instead and do art in my spare time, assuming there will be any.

Thoughts?