No Outlet

What do you do when you have no outlet for your feelings?

Sometimes... there just doesn't seem to be anywhere to turn. You can't talk to your "real life" friends because, in certain matters, you don't really trust them. You would give them the key to your house. You would give them your bank account numbers and your SS#. You just don't feel comfortable, however, confiding in them about some things. They've told the wrong people before, and that's not what you want to happen.

You can tell your online friends, but what real insight can they offer with such limited knowledge of the situation? For that matter, what help could your actual friends truly provide? They don't know what you go through. They only know of the joyful times when you're with them.

You don't really know what you want. You would love for someone to tell you what to do, for there to be a right course of action to step toward. Not that there's really any action to be done... just feelings to be sorted out. In the end, you're really looking for an outlet, for someone to listen.

I have an online journal, but I've only posted about 3 lines in it since its creation... half a year ago? I have a physical journal, but it's empty. Everyone says it's better to write your thoughts than to type them, but I just can't bring myself to do it. It just seems a waste of time to hand-write anything that could be typed. I have Zelaron, and, while the general populace is receptive and supportive, this really isn't the place for it...

Just the ramblings of a fool in need of sleep...