43 Days Until I Get My License Back...

On September 11, 2004 I can officially drive again, although that day is a Saturday, and the DMV isn't open on the weekends, which actually means, not 43 days, but 45 days until I get my actual license back and can drive again legally.

Honestly, it might not sound like that big of a deal for some of the members here, since you might not even have your damn license yet, but at the age of 22, not being able to drive is one of the biggest inconveniences you can encounter. It literally affects everything. Not so much in Philly, since most of the things I need in my daily life are within walking distance, but when I go home in NJ, life sucks.. If I want to get my haircut, I need to find a ride. If I want to go to the bank, I need to find a ride. If I want to get home, I need to find a ride from Philly or from the trainstation. I've walked home from the trainstation more times than I can remember because of not being able to get a ride, and that walk sucks.. It is at least 6 miles, and takes me a little over 2 hours..

Now, I have plenty of friends that are more than willing to be my ride to these places, but everyone has their limits, and I don't want to push any of them to that point. I haven't driven more than 5 feet over the last 10 and a half months, and that is a feat in itself.

This has also affected my personl life. I've lost a girlfriend over this, since it was a long distance relationship. Finding dates isn't exactly easy either. I mean seriously, my confidence has been shit lately. What guy meets a chick and asks them out on a date, but doesn't have transportation to go anywhere? "Hey baby, I don't have a car, since I lost my license getting a DUI a year ago, but do you wanna either walk somewhere or pick me up and go out to grab a drink sometime?" That shit just doesn't fucking float, at least not in my book.

I was seeing someone for a few months just recently, and she was more than willing to drive everywhere, which was great, but I just didn't see anything past a few sexual nights a week after drinking.. So I had to break that off, since she was getting way too attached and I did not feel the same way about her..

This might seem random to you people, but I just needed to write some shit down and get it off my chest. All my friends from NJ are calling me up, telling me about a party and watching the Tyson fight tonight, but I'm stuck in Philly, and all my roommates are out for the night with their girlfriend's. I guess I'm just really looking forward to driving again, so I can find myself a nice chick and settle down a little. I don't know..

Whatever, that's my rant..