Once again, you choose to miss the point. Why?
There is no such thing as psychologically toying with someone
(and you'd do better to stop thinking so--it would
save you a lot of trouble. Don't harbor all of that
tension). Why are you putting all of these personal
variables into this? All that you wanted to say is
how you felt about this topic. And, now you just
want to best someone? If you don't invest any
energy into a simple discussion, what's the point in
talking to you? Why should anyone trust you after
you pull something like that? Just one reason,
please. Here's another (neutral) point for you:
respecting the fact that you are upset and therefore
not afraid of death is not the same as respecting
you for any quality.