One of my best friends, Tiva, told me the other day that she has a brain tumor, and only about a year or 2 left because it's in a bad place they can't really get rid of it without casuing servere damage. She is refusing all chemo and other kinds of treatment and it really upset me. Last night my other friend Courtney (not a close friend, just a girl i talked to and had good times with in school and theatre) died of a brain tumor. They told her 6 months ago that she should have a while, and now this.

My mind is just all over the place and im crazy depressed. I feel bad, I stopped talking to courtney the past few months but I still feel so upset I'm like in tears. And now I'm even more scared for Tiva. I don't know what to do.

When my time comes, I want to be burried face down. That way, anyone that doesn't like me, can kiss my ass!