Shes actually older than me, I'm 18 and shes 19. She told me this last night, I dont really believe a word she says anymore.

: i just think if im by myself for a while i will be able to get that experience, because ive never had it. and then i will be able to commit to someone and not feel like, am i doing the right thing?
: because i feel like i know that commiting to one person is better than being like courtney and not comitting to anyone ever, but ive never really been by myself... ever. so i dont really know what thats like. so im thinking ill see that i dont like the single life and be able to go back to a relationship, but i dont want to go my whole life not knowing. and i think this is the best time to figure that out