Good for you, you validate your existence by how much "pussy" you can get, right after you bitch about your life with girls, because oh my Lord! you can't find "true love" or
the one", or something cliche and worthless like that. Maybe you should spend less time thinking about slitting your wrists to a glorious "emo" soundtrack and find a way to get some fucking testosterone and man it up. If you hate life so much because of these girls, maybe you should just spend more quality time with yourself. Yes that's it, you can sit in your room masturbating to pictures of your trite self, or maybe just in front of the mirror, because apparently you are "really hot and get all teh pussay!" It's not narcissistic at all, in fact... it's a perfect plan.

And about your first post, Jesus Christ you disgust me. Get the fuck off this "Self Discovery" trip. There is no such fucking thing, semantically it just doesn't make sense to "learn things about yourself". Furthermore, quit being a fucking pussy. "Oh no, I'm in an abusive relationship with a 5'4 100 lb girl (who's only a 5 or 6) that doesn't hurt me physically at all... but she takes a huge toll on my emotions. Yes, my fucking emotions." I hate you, I'm pissed.