CrEEpR, I was in just about the same possition, I had to pull myself out of it, people who rely on an outside source, aren't playing the game.

I don't think you're a prick, or anything like that, you should just PLAY the game it was meant to (or atleast post this in the right spot)

Party play is part of the game, MF with someone stronger than you (like I've done before also) until you find some good items.