Speak up for yourself, people will help. I figured that out as well. I used to be suicidal, I attempted a few times but failed due to interference... But anyway... Just be more outgoing, be yourself and dont try to impress everyone, that's just annoying and may be why you get ignored by your friends. Just learn to kick it. Live for the future but dont forget about the past? I dunno.

Maybe tonight we'll fly so far away... We'll be lost before the dawn...