Chruser, from what i see you are a lot like me. I could be wrong. Some things i noticed, or are possiblities related to your life. You must have lost someone, a mom, a friend, a wife. You seem a lot like me. Dragging on, through life, not being satisfied with what you do. You realize lots of things about yourself and others. Very perceptive. You think conspiracy alot. You dont let things pass. The kinda person who thinks that you are the center of everything. If you have seen the Truman Show, that is what you sometimes think of, as insane as you know you are. Are there cameras everywhere? In that movie it is all you want, yet all that is your greatest fear. You feel distrought, you feel like you arent doing what people think you could or are doing. You are scared. You get a weak feeling all through your body when you think like that. mostly around your stomach and back. Too much stress, too many thoughts, too many possibilites, why must certain things happen how they do. Why do some people dislike you? what do you do wrong? nothing really, at least in your own eyes. Do you whip up a lot more drama than there really is a lot of times? Do you want a certain sense of pain in your life to get other worthless stuff off your mind? are any of these things you? you seem a lot like me... please reespond