Once only if life was so generous I had an aunt tooken away who was like my mom a cousin and 2 grandma's in the past 4 years...

hey penguin don't be so sad even though you don't belive in an afterlife maybe the dog does and even if it don't exist atleast it won't have to go through all the pain it was dealing with I have experinced this quite a few times in my life. I once had a puppy that was so used to being with me all the time that when I left to goto school it hopped the fence and started following me this happened for a while and we tried everything to raise the fence higher get a invisible fence thing but no matter wut the dog just tried hard to get to me the more pain it went through so eventually I just turned the things all off and let it follow me then I would lock it up inside untill one day it got out and got hit, kinda a sorry things about attatchments there good to have the love but bad to have the emotions. All people are the same as you we don't know what we have til we lost it and regret everything that we have ever done wrong to it, but you should be happy knowing that dogs can never hate they only love and protect so wut ever you did to it won't matter and isn't as bad as you think it is...