Zelaron Gaming Forum - Whatever you want to call it

I just wrote this about 5 minutes ago. I know it sucks but I felt like posting it anyway. You probably wont even understand what it means, I just had to write it and did, I didn't even think about it. If you have any asshole remarks keep them to yourself. I'm not gonna bother spell checking this or editing it any, this is exactly like it came out.

I'm going to die
you're making me cry
don't even know what to say
I want to say whatever will make things right
you ripped my heart out and stomped on it
you didnt mean to but you did...
I don't blame you, life's just like that
everything you want you cant have
anyone you love you lose
flood of emotion
I'm overwhelmed.
I hope and wish I can fix things
maybe it will all work out
but that's not how life is
nothing works out. ever.
nothing ever goes as planned
I must have been blind to think it would
blind with love
blind with you
you were blind too
maybe we were right before and now we're wrong
I know this doesn't feel right
if it is I want to be wrong
at least wrong gives me something to live for
I can't eat.
I won't be able to sleep.
you are my air, my food, my girl
what is it I did?
what did you do?
did you do something you just wont tell me about?
or did I do something you wont tell me about?
I'm so confused.
Up is down, left is right
what is life going to be like without you brightening my days?
what life?
what life is there without your love?
I don't want life without you
Struggling is better than hurting
anything is better that struggling
what do we do?
what do we say?
what does it all mean?
I treat you as best I can
I think I do a good job
Why did I leave?
If I had stayed maybe I could have talked some sense into you
I know you cant be thinking rationally
there's no way I am
I had to leave, I knew what was coming
I couldn't take it like a man
I'm not a man
I liked to think I was, but I'm no man
nothing could heal this pain
nothing
nothing can soothe this pain
it cant be done
it cant be undone
its ever lasting
a black hole
will it ever stop?
will this ever stop?
It already has...